The Fear of Change that Comes with a New Job

The Fear of Change

I recently accepted an offer for a new job that starts in June and I’m so excited! But with that excitement comes plenty of fear. I’m leaving behind a job that I can honestly say I thoroughly enjoyed 90% of the time. The company took excellent care of me and offered a lot of perks. I had a flexible schedule, a generous amount of paid sick/vacation time, the ability and freedom to work from home via a company-issued laptop (convenient when your kid has pink eye, can’t go to school and isn’t sick enough for constant care), as well as relationships with some pretty hilarious and free-spirited co-workers. I can honestly say that I worked for a department that played as hard as they worked. I learned a lot there and grew tremendously as a writer.

The job I am moving on to is pretty much a second version of a dream job. I’ve shared before how I deeply desire to open a preschool for my church, but with that being at least 7-10 years on the horizon, I had to make a decision. Was I fulfilled enough in my current job to make it that long without feeling like I was cheating myself, or was there something else out there for me? I love working. I really do. I love having something to call my own and providing financially for my family. It’s just how I am wired. However, if I’m going to do it, I want it to be something I am passionate about. This job change gives me an opportunity to really come into my own and to do something that I am very excited about.

But… it’s new. And while it does come with its own set of perks, it’s just different and that’s scary. While going through the interview process, I set the precedent that I need to leave downtown by 4:30 in order to ensure I’m always on time for daycare pick-up. I live about 30 miles north of downtown, which puts me to daycare at 5:15 if there isn’t much traffic. One car accident and I could be pushing 6:00 and that $1/minute late fee (ouch). Thankfully, they were pretty understanding and said that’s totally fine. But will that uphold? Will it always be understood that I am pretty unavailable after 4:30 or 4:45?

Will my co-workers like me? Will I live up to the expectation they have for me? Am I just good at selling myself in an interview (in this case 6 for one job) yet will fail at the task? What if my child goes through a bout of constant sickness again – will they be understanding? What if I get pregnant before I’ve been there a year (God willing, infertility makes that pretty unlikely), will they keep my job for me since I technically don’t fall under FMLA in that case? At my old job, I spent two years banking vacation days so I’d have more than the standard 6 weeks available (paid) for maternity leave. I’m able to cash that out when I leave, but still…

Entering into a new job is so exciting, but there is also a lot of fear that goes along with it. I gave my employer a one-month notice, which they were extremely grateful for, but I have a feeling it’s going to make this fear build up inside even more as I prolong the inevitable.

Have you changed jobs recently? How did you keep yourself sane during the transition period?

About the author

Jessi is the wife to her high school sweetheart Glenn and mother to Zoey Liz (“Peach”, born 2010). A marketing professional by day, nurturing mother and blogger by night, she is determined to not sacrifice precious motherhood for too much work and is currently on a quest to discover her balance. Jessi blogs about adventures in motherhood and hurdles with PCOS+infertility at Life Abundant. You can also follow her on Instagram, Twitter and Pinterest.

4 Comments

  1. Jo says:

    Congrats on your new opportunity. This is probably the biggest reason I am hesitant to look for a new job. My job right now isn’t great, but there are a lot of benefits that I might not find elsewhere. It can be so scary (plus, being the new person again after being ‘established’ at the old job). But then I think about how I’ve changed jobs before and it all works out in the end… that I always just need to trust my gut. Thank you for vocalizing this – I am sure you aren’t alone.
    Twitter: JolizieD

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