I’ve been blogging at Hormonal Imbalances for almost 3 years. It started as an outlet for all the extra time I had while my 2 month old napped.
It’s become so much more than that to me.
For a long time, I struggled with writing. I wasn’t sure why I wrote, where it was going, or if I could ever be OK with just writing for fun. I adored being a stay at home mom, but there was a part of me that longed for validation beyond that, something where my creativity mattered to more than – my family. Who have faithfully read my blog since almost day 1. (Hi all!)
So this past year, I’ve gotten hired on with several freelance jobs (Babble, Oreck, Military Family) that allow me to pull in a full time income, as well as other unpaid gigs that encourage me to stretch my creativity and love of writing. All this means I work nearly full time hours.
It’s been amazing.
It’s also been incredibly validating to what I love and wanted to do for so long.
But like any part of life, it has both it’s ups and downs. Working from home enables me to homeschool my daughter, go on playdates, and have the freedom of my own schedule. For the most part. It also helps tremendously with finances, paying off debt, and little extras.
The flip side is that I rarely get uninterrupted time to work. As I type this, Bella dumped an entire container of dirt on the dog, then rammed her truck into my foot. Again. I feel pressed for time most days, and there are many afternoons I look up after nap is over to realize dinner isn’t started, still frozen, and the trip to the store we had planned will have to wait. I’ve had to skip birthday parties for last minute deadlines, late nights for work and scheduling.
As we found a routine, I also realized I needed help with all of this. I hired our (amazing) sitter who comes 3 mornings a week to be with Bella while I write at our local Starbucks. Meals are still a bit hard on me, but I’ve learned that double batches on slower days and then freezing means on a busy day, I have home cooked dinner that just needs to heat up. Cleaning? If I could justify a housekeeper, I would. But for now, I get it done in spurts of time throughout the day and week.
I have two feelings about working while Bella is awake: it’s good for her to play on her own, and it’s not something I want her to resent about me.
I work on finding a balance with this, because not working a lot while she’s up means that when she’s down at night, I work. That leaves Sam and I chatting while I’m writing. Or him zoning out to Netflix while I pump out posts. It also means naps are all work, all the time. Social media is 24-7, so in knowing that and making it work for me, I have to create my own hours while understanding that email checking from my phone is just part of my job. Not checking means an editor somewhere is waiting hours for a response on something that needed to be answered in minutes.
With all that being said, I love it. I wouldn’t trade what I get to do for anything. It’s truly a dream come true for me, even if it means life is a little on the crazy side and our dog frequently needs a bath.